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26 Comments
Susan
Oh Leigh I suffer from very similar anxieties and just reading your story has helped to know I am not alone. My eyes filled up when you said about Nick calming you down all hours of the night as my husband has done the same with me. I also can see through Nicks tough exterior and I can see now why you love him so much. I don’t have it all the time but every now and then it rears it’s head as it has done now, so I’m lying here on the bed trying to stay calm and quiet and that’s when I came across your blog. Thank you for taking the time to write all these feelings down, and I’m going to take some of your advice and maybe read the books and get the app. 💞 xxx
Nikki
Excellent read Leigh. Ot will definitely help people through challenging times, I’ve been there too. You’re a wonderful guy don’t ever forget that. ❤️
Christine
I cried when I read this.. I too had problems making friends and was very lonely through out my schooling . I was diagnosis with bipolar. It wasn’t after my suicide attempt that I was put on medication. It helps calm my mind and racing thoughts. I lost my dad, my aunt and uncle within three months. My dad was the hardest. He had Alzheimer’s. My mom and me were his care takers. He past away on my birthday. Everyone felt sorry for me. I told them it was the greatest gift because I know he is no longer suffering and is finally at peace. My birthday will always be tuff for me, but I celebrate his life and mine. Shortly after this I had another sucicide attempt. I left a very negative person back in my life. I was back in the hospital and my meds were changed. The combination of meds I’m on now, I have helped. Do I racing thoughts, yes, sleepless night yes, but it doesn’t consume my life anymore. I do meditation and journaling. Two years ago we moved to Florida from Pennsylvania. It was a big move, I was so scared. I lost all my mental health support. But I’m back in therapy and on my meds. The best part is that we go to Disney World just about every weekend. It’s my therapy, just forget our life for awhile and enjoy being with my family. Sorry this is so long and rambling but it helps to clear my mind. Take care
Jayne
What an incredibly humbling read, and thank you so much for taking the time in sharing your experience with MH and for probably going to places within your mind you didn’t really want to, I know how much it must take to show the world the inner you
I myself, have suffered with OCD all my life, and more recently GAD and mild PTSD, and you sometimes feel its ‘only you’ going through this, even when your mind tells you you’re not.
We all have broken pieces within, and I believe everyone, at some degree, suffers from MH whether its apparent to them or not.
The best medication are loved ones, and being open and honest and giving yourself some slack and to never feel you have to apologise or explain yourself to others. You are who you are, and if the world had more Leigh (and Nick’s) then that would make a far kinder and better world